Day 12

Day 12, Legs and Back. 55 minutes of lunges, squats, and pull ups. And Ab Ripper X.

So I am excited for my workout today because I had a dream last night that I did one reverse grip pullup the grown up way. What is my lesson for today? I am not a prophet. That would explain why I also didn't get that scratch off ticket I had a dream about that won me $1000. Darn it.

When I start the workout, I am super tight and sore in my right piriformis (hip rotator) so some of the right lunges and squats are difficult. I do my best, and by the end, it is all stretched out and now it feels wonderful. My arms are shaking, my legs are shaking, but I feel GREAT!

I will do the Ab Ripper when I get home from work tonight.

I had some insight yesterday while chatting with a friend. She asked me about my son's first day of Kindergarten. In my head it was far away, on paper, its less than two weeks. When I realized this, I welled up and instantly started to cry. I don't think I realized how hard this was going to be on me. For five years now he has been with me. On the three days a week I massage, I don't go in til 11 or 12 so we have all morning together. And on Mondays and Wednesdays I'm off, so we have all day together. Saturdays, I work both jobs, so he is with his daddy all day. Now I realize, what the heck am I going to do with him in school all day?? He is my little partner. And it made me realize that deep down I am devastated that my baby is going to Kindergarten. I think I started this program so that I would have something else to focus on and put my energy in as we transition in to this next phase of our lives.